things i miss :)

gossshhhh i miss lots of things right now!!!
first of all, i miss my GRADE 8 FRIENDS (stef, jessica, aldo yosa, alex, yoga, nowell,etc). they are not my friends, they are like my own family! for some reason that i don't really know, we are not as close as we used to be, and i really want everything to go back as it used to be. I LOVE BEING AROUND THEM.

secondly, I MISS MY BOYFRIEND SOOOO MUCCHHH!!! we haven't spoken like "that" for like two weeks if i'm not mistaken. goosshhhh i really miss him. i really feel like single for the past two weeks. I NEED HIM! mann i can't stop thinking about him, and i tend to cry when i think of our problem. and boyfie, please don't be mad when you read this, i posted this post because i really need to let it out. and if you are reading this, please note that i really love you, no matter what. and i can't stop thinking about the time that you said you want to grow old with me and everything, it really made me blush. i really miss your hugs and i miss calling you as my polar bear. i also miss those times we spend texting, calling, chatting to each other all the time. 3 minutes without you seemed like a year! silly old me!

and bloggie, guess what? that's not all! i also miss my friends from my homestay trip. they are like family too! i really love them. i only knew them for 3 weeks, but 3 weeks is just enough to really know them that well. it seems like we know each other since a long time ago. we told our secrets to each other without hesitating, even a bit! we are planning to meet each other when one of us, bejo, is visiting jakarta. bejo here lives in padang, so it's hard for us to meet him.

not only friends, but i also miss my grandmother's little brother, kong an! he passed away over a month ago. i was in europe that time, i didn't get the chance to say goodbye. he was like my own grandfather. he likes animals, he used to have lots of different kinds of animals in his house. wherever you are, i wish you are happy, okay? i love you kong an <3

looking through the eyes of love :)

soooo i had a fight with my boyfriend and we still haven't talk to each other, yet. and for those who think we're not together anymore, YOU ARE WRONG! please stop spreading false rumors, it's really annoying! well, i've been taking vocal lessons with my friend and the teacher asked us to sing "looking through the eyes of love" by melissa manchester. the lyric really got me crying. here it is.

Looking Through the Eyes of Love

please don't let this feeling end
it's everything i am
everything i wanna be
i can see what's mine now
finding out what's true
since i found you
looking through the eyes of love

and now i can take the time
i can see my life
as it comes up shining now
reaching out to touch you
i can feel so much
since i found you
looking through the eyes of love

and now i do believe
that even in the storm we'll find some light
knowing you're beside me i'm alright

please don't let this feeling end
it might not come again
and i want to remember
how it feels to know you
i can feel so much
since i found you
looking through the eyes of love



for my boyfriend, i love you, and please, i don't want bad things to happen between us, i was too afraid to lose you, sorry if i cared too much. and sorry if i posted this in my blog, i don't have the guts to say this to you.

camwhoring

i do this when i am bored! these are my late pictures, i feel like a pig!

                                      

                                      

        this last one is a picture of me with a bag i bought from london for my lovely little cousin :*

it's working you guys!

somebody really made my mood down today. whatever you're doing, it's working, i am now in a bad mood! i really need somebody to accompany me on the phone! i miss those days when i used to be on the phone every single night for hours!

i'm back

after spending three whole weeks in Europe, i am now officially back :) gw ke yurop bersama 15 anggota best homestay lainnya :) pas pertama kali dateng di airport sukarno hatta, gw cuma kenal sama jece, trus pas pulangnya, i ended up being friends with all of them, well almost :p di homestay ini i met rachel, nadia,dityo, bejo, deasy, david, michelle, debby, olivia, clarissa, angie, gia, stevilla and jessica. mereka semua sangat seru!!!! jadi inget deh, waktu itu gw kan ngetok kamar stevilla, trus si stevilla kek "syp" trus bentaran lagi ada suara dy ngmng " aduh ga nyampe" ternyata dy mau ngintip lewat peephole pintu hotel trus dy ga nyampe. gw sama jece sama nadia lgsg ngakak sampe bugil! haha. oh iya the best places pas homestay ini itu would be cambridge sama london! maaannnnn gw mau tinggal disana!!!! turned out that paris yang kata orang orang bagus romantis apa lah itu jelek and disappointing! disana orangnya rude bgt trus kek kotanya gitu gitu doang, ga ada yg spesial. di paris kerjaan gw free time bareng jece nadia mehong sama si bejo cuma ke mcd mall sebelah hotel, trus pulangnya ke kamar mehong sama bejo main laptop si celeng smabil makan mikado sama kit kat black ato apa lah trus balik. btw mehong, celeng, giant sama dityo adalah orang yang sama, dy adalah teman homestay saya yg lucu dan imut :p HAHAHA gw kangen banget sama suasana homestay sama temen temennya juga!! trus di london dkk itu udaranya kek enak banget, di indo BORO BORO! mannn i wanna go back there soo bad! segini dulu yaa :) byee :*

tomorrow's the day babyy!!!

guess what? I'M GOING TO EUROPE TOMORROW MORNING!! omg omg omg, i can't wait to get there!! i am so excited to go there!! it's my first time to go to Europe and i'm going with my bestfriend, jessica. we've been bestfriends since second grade and i love her very much :* i'll be on board on 09.42 this sunday. but then, i remember something, i can't contact my boyfriend for THREE WHOLE WEEKS!! that's really torturing! it would be too expensive for both me and him to text or call each other. well, i am pretty sure that's not a problem for us. 

i am typing this post in my room, wondering where my boyfriend is. i last contact him at eight o'clock and it is almost ten now, but still, i haven't heard anything about him. i texted him for two times and there's no sign of his replies. today's the last night i can be on the phone with him before my europe trip. i hope he's not asleep right now and i also hope that i can contact him, SOON!

well, that's it for now lil bloggers, i have no more to say. ciao :*

things in my mind right now :p

so it's me, again
my cousin is staying at my house and guess what? he's sleeping in my room and i got to sleep in my parents room. in this kind of situation, i don't have any space for my own to do my private business :p
it's been like three days since i last have a phone call with my boyfriend. I MISS HIM SOO MUCH!! i hope you miss me too :) he's kinda busy right now, he's not replying most of my texts, he's too busy to answer my call, and most of the time, when i go online, he goes offline. sometimes i feel like he's avoiding me or something, i hope that's not true :) and i don't know if he's the only boy to do this or not, but he sleeps, A LOT! it gets on my nerve sometimes. it really is annoying to talk on the phone with him, and all of a sudden he's not saying a thing, turned out that HE'S ASLEEP, again!! there's something i need to spill, well, unlike any other girls, most of my friends are boys. i have a boy best friend, we have been best friends since seventh grade. i really love my best friend, he's like a brother to me, but it seems like both my boyfriend and best friend can't get along together, that's too bad, isn't it? well, no offense you guys, i'm writing this post just to make me feel better, i have no intention to insult any one of you :p i am now trying to balance my love life with my friend life *it's not supposed to be called friend life* and it's hard to do so. haha! ooh yeah1 i almost forget i'm going on a homestay trip this sunday with my very best friend, Jessica <3 and 18 other stranger :p i'm sooo excited :):):) by the way, that's it for today bloggie, my hands need some rest :p ttyl!